Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Tattos

So as most everyone knows I desire to get married....
I have been praying and I know that the Lord is still continuing to do a work in my life & heart.
The more I draw closer to the Lord, the more I have a longing to get married!
1. Because I am single and I am sure any girl would love to be married 
2. I know that the Lord has put that desire there.
3. Two people can do more for the Lord, then one!

I know most girls just pray that their husband will be handsome, funny, likes the same things as they like ect..... 
I would hope for the same as well. Yes there is things I would like and so on, but the amazing and most beautiful thing is, the Lord KNOWS the DESIRES of my heart! 
I Pray for the heart. I pray that he would be so in love with the Lord that when it comes to me he would not hesitate. I do believe and trust that the Lord will make it plain and simple for my husband to be. 
That there will be no questions asked other then.... She's really for me Abba???? 
I pray that he would not hold back in his faith he has in the Lord, that he would press on even more....
I am excited that I get to pray for my husband now. That I can already be a tool in his life even with out him knowing who I am or that I am. 
I pray for many different things through out the day and weeks.... even hours where the Lord is pressing something upon my heart.... it feel so heavy at times but then and there i know its time for me to be praying... 

For me,I have already gone through enough as it is, and I GET to share those things with him. Yes it does scare me at points but not like it use to. See sin effects all, thus I have been effected, and effected others. Not proud of it but I know that my Heavenly father has forgiven me. And by walking through the things I decided at that moment and time of my life, I am stronger now (today). and I know the things I don't want apart of my life, I know how I can better pray for my Husband (to be).... and lead alone it has brought me to my knees. I have been broken and healed, transformed and have been washed as white as now....

Yes there will always be that fear of.... He might not be able to handle my past, or he wont know what to say and how to be there for me... or It simply might just scare him away.
But then I remember that the Lord is Preparing him for what is to come... Just how HE is doing a work and preparation in me.

Alright so by now you are most likely wondering why this is titled Tattoos?
Well I have them and I love them as well.... I plan on getting more!
But........ I get scared because what IF my Husband (to be) does not like them? or has none.... or never wants to get any?????

I know its funny to think.... but its what has been on my mind lately.
So any how I just thought that I would share that with you!
Apart of me
Its all I got.....

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Here we go

Alright so I'm a world traveler as some would put it, I get to travel all over the world for my Jesus!
The Lord has blessed me with so many opportunities with traveling and serving HIM all over.

Right now I get to be in Hawaii! Yes that sounds painful because at first the idea was painful.
1. I knew that the Lord had called me to go 2. I didn't understand it 3. I knew that it would be hard making people understand why I was going and to get support.

With the simple fact that I knew the Lord had called me to go, that He put the burden upon my heart, I knew that I was going. Yes I will say I was not to over joyed with the thought at first cause I did not see the point.....

I have been here for a little over a month now which is kinda crazy to think/say. I'll be here till the end of August and back home on September 1st for 10 days then I am heading out to Motherwell Scotland for 2 months....
While I have been here I've gotten to meet a lot of people and to see many different ministries go on..
I'm staying with an Older couple, Joe & Linda Warn..
That have been supper nice and a blessing to stay with. Their a little more quiet then I am use to at times but we get some good talks in and have a good time together..
Then you have the Markwith Family... James, Deedee, Josh, Zach, Britt, Bran (Brandee) and Caleb
They are amazing and such a joy to be around cause it reminds me of my family and how random we are and how we really don't need much to have a good time with each other.
They everyone pretty much treats me like family but Josh and Zach, their still getting use to me, even tho they have been going to school in MN for the past two years. I just blame the fact that they are guys.
James will make you laugh every time he walks in the room.... Deedee well she's a mom and is an amazing one at that. Britt and Bran I cant get enough of those girls. They were gone for a few weeks and I missed them so much.. I've gotten to spend a bit of time with them, they make me laugh so hard at times and smile like crazy. Caleb well he's just Caleb..... He makes me wish I had a little brother!

After I have been here for three weeks, I had been asked to go to Japan to help out with some relief centers for a week.
I will say it was so amazing to be there and see the love of the father shared while being there. I'll have a different post about Japan later.

It always amazes me how much more I am praying or having the time to pray. I love it so much. I have gotten to write more and just have time at the Lords feet and just being available where ever. Granted its different here,which is not bad or wrong just different.... But I'm loving the time I am getting with my Heavenly father. I do pray all the time cause if I'm not I feel like I cant breath at times, and my mood will even change. But getting the time to really sit down and taking it blesses me. It also amazes me when I get to meet someone, then the Lord shows me a glimpse of their life and then I get to pray for them,
I'm simply loving it.

So last year I got to visit Scotland for a few days. I fell in love with Scotland the moment I got off the train. I knew that I was going to enjoy myself but I never thought that I would fall in love...
I'm going to a different part of Scotland this time and I get to do ministry while I am there!
I know the Lord is going to be doing so much in me these 6 months and I am excited to see everything in the end.

I love my Heavenly Father!